....outcasted

who shld i trust??
now wat??
many times i wasnt in those things they had.....
damn
emo again.......

sjam....kss07/14

mr chairman....
i am mr chairman
bt i didnt wanna b mr chairman
till God put me in tht sit
tht sit wher i had shit....
ok
problems again
2nd man n 3 of his frens...
NOT HAPPY>>>
they start a damn army 2 go against me....
bt y i dunno
so
let me get some things straight k....
i joined 2 years ago
n God blessed me wif tht post
b4 tht
back trackin a few months
dec 2007...
in BB
an active member
nvr thought ogf joining sjam
till 2008
bout feb
i kinda gt intrested bt nt in st john
bt my ex was ther
tht time we were 2gether
so
she said
i would make a good leader in any post i took
bt damn
i nvr lead anythin in my live
the oni time i rmbr i waws a leader is during sunday school camp when i was std 5....
those were like kiddies game
so i thought i could handle tis...
they tipped me 2 b mr drilling guy....
then it came 2 their meeting...the ex comitee
i was....speechless when my gal told me
ur name is nt in....
so i was lik wtf.... nvm then
then mr 2nd man
he wanted me in his side
so i say
i giv u my support
i thought he could make shit....
bt he only could talk shit...
i didnt know tis till it was 2 days b4 annual g meeting
ok
back 2 the teaming up story
mr 2nd's best fren which is mr training
he was tipped 2 b mr chairman
so
mr 2nd was against tis shit
n he included mr current useless soft drill guy....
so
dat guy was juz lik a lose cannon
he was pissed...so bla bla bla
boring story
ok
2 da point nw
mr 2nd...
told mr drill...
i b mr chairman
u b my 2nd man
i was lik well so0unds lik a plan
den
it was lik ok ok
everythin in plan
till it was a few days b4 agm
we were flimming the surprise opening...
hey
wtf man
i inspired dat..
bt y r they getting credits....
i dun giv a shit bout tht...
God knows i did it...
so nxt it was d-day
so
we had tis thing called the surprise opening
i was the st 2 b surprised even though i was the 1 who planned it
bt tis was out of the script
i was excluded frm the opening...
oh man
mr pissed ky came out
met the big boss...
she told me
2 keep low
i was goin 2 get a Good post
GOOD
so
me n mr 2nd
knew 1 of us
so it came the time wher they chose who's who n who sits in which chair
so
left me n mr 2nd
n the vice chairman post...
MR 2ND
wait
rewind
b4 tht
i hugged tht guy n said
no matter wat work 2gether
he fuckin said OK!!!!
he's a damn......wait
dun judgeXD
so i was chairman...
n i had 2 face a mr2nd n mr training n mr vice treasure n oso mr guy handler(gay)
4 on 1
others
1 bak me
my ex
bt the other 8
sat ther n kept quiet
tis is the story
any readers
pls
try nt think juz accept
itz complicated in tis thing...
itz lik politics
nt lik the kiddish game i used 2 b in
GOD bless .....loyal to SJAM
and BB

emo shit.......F***

haih
gt 2 noe her(number)...oni u guys noe who her k....
bt f***(censored due 2 cm's requestXD)
damn man
she has a boyfriend...
bt i tot i wasnt serious...???
nevermind
the day sucked
hwork done...bt argued wid parents n bro
+ tis shit....
its a fking emo day 4 me....
ohhhhh..... damn!!!!
FUCK THE WORLD......its me....
public enemy number 1
tis day i nvr 4get man
29th of jan
a damn emo day
shit....y???!!!!!!
arrrghhh
frustration creeping into me skin......
I WASNT FUCKIN SERIOUS BOUT HER...
BT Y NOW I FEEL LIDAT??!!!!!!!
haiz.........sigh sigh sigh
God bless

friends

tis is a story of 4...
friends....
4 was the number bt said i left...
i was ther al the while u...not you all...you...
YOU left us all...ok??
i left BB cos i was forced to....nt 2 b a distance frm u...get it.???
let's get 2 the point
it was dec 2007 when it was the day we...1st kjg coy were on our way 2 our public debut of our band performance....
well...
i told u i wanted 2 sit with u...
bt u said u had 2 sit with some1....
so wtf...i dun giv a damn...
den dj called me 2 sit wif him...he was alone....
so me wif him were checkin out some cars....
suddenly...'Miss Charming"(nt according 2 me ok...)
texted me....
the content of the damn msg was simple INSTRUCTIONS>>>>>come bhind...i wanna slp..
i didnt care bout those damn instructions...
so cont talk 2 mr dj...
ok...till miss tiny came n asked me 2 go...
so i was lik wtf....
ok ok
as long as u dun bug me...
no offence k....!!(..!..)
fuck
i didnt know it would come rite bak around...
she lied on me damn shoulders....
so the journey cont....
till 1u came...
we gt dwn...
after band i saw You...
u sigh n said 'i dunno wat 2 say bout u'...
ur fav quote
WHAT THE FUCK...IF U DUNNO WAT @ FUCKIN SAY THEN SHUT THE FUCK UP....
then
went 4 lunch+tea time...
so....
i didnt follow 'miss charming'
i was with u...n our damn crew
except 1 of the 4 wasnt here...
jon was wif another group
fine
so
bak 2 bus after fucking around in 1u
i didnt go 2 da bak
i was finding 4 a place....
so
the oni place was bside jian...
so went sit wif jian...
den..
she came...
SHE CAME OK!!!
so again lied dwn on me
again see the head shaking...i was wondering hw it would look if u were giving a bj 2 some1....
so...
bak 2 church
u dun even wanna talk 2 me
MAN!!
i was stupid 2 pick up the damn phone 2 call u
cos the following week
i was hearing my name associated with mr playboy....wher the fuck are my bunnies if i am a damn playboy...
so wtf...i didnt care...i tot u wouldnt do dat...
i was wrong
sch started a few weeks later....
u talked bout it again...
hey
CONGRATS>>>miss charming n i didnt caht after tht incident....
she is afraid 2 even reply me christmas wishes....asshole
den came to the part of ur damn story....
i didnt say a shit ok...
i heard bout u so i juz said
owh...wtf...he said i was a playboy...nw wats wat?
so....
i juz heard tis....ok
i am stil tryin 2 love her
i was lik...wtf...2 months....hugs given in CHURCH!!!
damn........
respect ur rank as a nco in BB
n pls RESPECT GOD!!
so
u texted me
dun make idiotic comments....
ok
hw bout u???
i dun respect u no more...
n 1 more....
r u even fit 2 b a leader....
y nt take a moment 2 think....
nt juz admire urself all the time...get it??ur nt better than any1...God just blessed u with talents....
well...
i took everythin u said n accepted it...didnt wanna explain cos u cant take it...
now i let go of this burden
n readers....dun judge...understand if nt FO...
God Bless

damn....

1st post...
well...life's like shit....i dunno y i feel empty...
after the break up i felt ok...
bt tis is lik the aftershock...damn....
wtf....
here it goes...
it was the day i tot i had 2 leave....so i juz left without any responsibility....
1 year left me so much pain n pleasure....bt tis was easier than i tot...
juz walkin out the door...
but then it struck
she said something bout promises bt i nvr ever kept any promises
itz ok.....mayb...
welll
den it starts...she crappin bout shiftin school n all...
i was lik damn
who's gonna get me a new secretary 4 my division...
with all the jackass playin wif their dick n thinkin their dick is part of prob....fuck them
so it was juz all shit when she said dat...
then everythin settled...bt i still feel lik we're 2gether cos we argue often lik oways....n we sahred some love....
bt then i wanted move on....
i didnt wanna b the tky in december2007.....tht guy sucks....
no he didnt....tht part later....i gt some business 2 deal wif an asshole....
so then...the story goes like it will never end...
n it hasnt...bt am i looking 4 a new gal??hv i found her?
God knows...so dont tell me who the fuck is rite n wrong....cos itz me nt u tht's in tis....
you dunno wtf i'm goin thru...thks
God bless...!!